If there is one thing I can say about attempting to connect objectivity to your experience, is that you will notice the appearance of body language, and other signals transcending your subconscious, becoming visible to your conscious mind. While at first seeming like a gift, this vision ultimately leads to the realization that only your subconscious, and just your subconscious, has the largest amount of potential to utilize this given information. When your body becomes aware of the unspoken language surrounding it, especially if you are someone who has difficulty preforming under pressure, it will attempt and many times fail to cross the line that exists in social situations. This is the line that divides conscious actions and subconscious actions. Signaling other people’s conscious minds with actions that you perceive as subconscious signals is an exercise in futility, as it as far as I know, as it lacks the instinctual reaction that comes from subconscious communication, and can be marred by lesser thoughts and desires rising from your conscious mind. This leads to a circle of failure, in which you are constantly failing social interactions because of your compensation behaviors that can be easily mistaken for selfish or manipulative impulses, or just blind attempts to please.

Of course, if you are the sort of person who thrives off social situations, and can navigate them with ease, I am sure that this vision can be more than advantage. However, for people who are lacking in that department, reaching this point of consciousness expansion and awareness can lead to depression and an inability to even communicate on the simplest of terms in line with your actual beliefs, instead changing every facet of your behavior to please everyone around you.

Then, you get three different reactions. Either you get matched with people who mistake this kindness for weakness and use it against you to undermine your confidence and ability to function, you get matched with people who see it without trying to compensate in your direction at all, or you get people who literally can’t see any of your actions at all, their minds completely enveloped in their own sphere of existence.

I would say that those who live in this purgatory are cursed, however, curse implies that the responsibility lies with another person, whereas this curse is self-inflicted. Intelligence and knowledge are both powerful tools that can also pose threats to one’s sanity. Take this into consideration when you walk along the path to objectivity.